"adventure may hurt you but monotony will kill you."

i have a fear. irrational fear? could be. but its a fear nonetheless.

monotony: wearisome uniformity or lack of variety, as in occupation or scenery.
now, dont get me wrong, my life is not boring. its busy. i love my apartment, my job, my friends, my family. daniel and i are a great duo. we are a team and we love adventures. hes calm and im enthusiastic. hes laid back and im energetic. hes my roots and im his wings.

despite this i still worry. will i always live in california? i know that we have our trips... thats one of the things that gets me thru. i focus on our trips, past and present. but will we ever live anywhere else? i always say i want to move, but when it comes right down to it, could i leave my family? whats more important, new experience or being with those you love? experiences shape who you are, who you will be. but family makes life experiences have meaning.

i guess i dont really know the answer. im just throwing it out there into the universe. to quote youve got mail: im sending this cosmic question into the void.
goodnite, dear void ;)

4 note/s:

  1. here's the answer: there is no right answer :) your family is your partner so whatever works for the stength of your relationship is the right thing. whether you live here or moscow, you will always be fantastically interesting because you are inately cool. love you

  2. I'm struggling with work monotony (but can't blog about it as work pals read the blog). In this financial climate jobs are hard to come by so I'm trying not to be dissatisfied but am really wondering "is this all there is?" eek!

  3. I know for us it was very hard to leave our incredible friends and family 1600 miles away! Truth is there is no easy answer, for us it was time for a change even with the roots and history we had. To put it simply, we just dident belong there anymore. And now looking back I see the kind of friends that we would have never met and become so close to ( like family ) had we never just up and moved on. Every situation is different though. Like I said no easy answer! :-)

  4. whatever you do, wherever you go.... your family will always love & support you... within Jehovah's organization you can find additional friends anywhere on the earth (notice I did not say "new"!! :) Just keep putting Jehovah first and sticking together as a couple like you two do, you will be happy anywhere!! Of course, we have the beach..... haha :) luv you.



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